JOH CH122: Confession
Su Yiran suddenly sat up and turned to ask Gu Yuanting, “Ting-ge, when did you learn to play the piano?”
And you play so well — it’s impossible that you only learned a few times by chance. Even if Ting-ge has talent, it would take a long time, years of practice.
Gu Yuanting instantly stiffened.
This is bad.
From last night until now, he was too excited, realizing that Ranran loved him even more than he had imagined. That made him overconfident and forget this particular issue.
In this life, he had always lived with Ranran and had never learned piano!
Gu Yuanting lay stiffly in the covers, completely panicked.
What should he do? What can he do?
Seeing Ting-ge silent for a long time, Su Yiran turned on the light and said, “Why aren’t you talking? Are you hiding something from me again?”
With the light on, he saw Gu Yuanting’s face pale, beads of sweat on his forehead. He was startled and hurriedly felt his forehead, worried he was ill.
“What’s wrong?”
“N-nothing,” Gu Yuanting said nervously as he sat up, then stiffened again.
What could he do?
Su Yiran felt his forehead temperature was normal and relaxed, then realized what was going on. Seeing Ting-ge frozen like a wooden block, he was both annoyed and amused.
“What exactly are you hiding from me? Why are you so nervous?”
In a panic, Gu Yuanting made up an excuse: “I… I learned it after returning to the Gu family.”
Thinking it through, the only time he could have learned was when he lost his memory and was separated from Ranran for a while after returning to the Gu family. The rest of the time, he was always with Ranran, even on business trips only separated for two or three days at most.
Su Yiran immediately rejected this excuse without hesitation: “That’s a lie. You were still talking with me on the phone every day back then. I know you were working overtime and staying up late — there’s no way you had time to learn piano.”
Gu Yuanting knew this excuse didn’t hold, but had no other reason and looked at Ranran helplessly, hoping he wouldn’t press further.
Seeing Ting-ge’s pitiful look, Su Yiran softened but still felt there was something important behind this. He remembered what Dr. Sun had said — Gu Yuanting was severely insecure and seemed to be hiding something.
Could this secret be the root of Ting-ge’s severe insecurity?
Ting-ge suddenly being good at piano was indeed suspicious. Su Yiran racked his brain but couldn’t figure out what was going on or what he didn’t know.
Judging by Ting-ge’s reaction, it must be important, so he decided to dig deeper.
“Ting-ge, don’t worry,” Su Yiran said softly as he hugged him and kissed him, looking into his eyes. “No matter what you’re hiding, I won’t really be mad. I love you.”
Gu Yuanting’s heart trembled hearing Ranran’s kiss and declaration. He looked at him, unsure how to respond.
“Please tell me what’s going on, okay?” Su Yiran gently stroked his face and tried to comfort him. “You lost your memory and many things happened during that time. We got through it together. Maybe what you’re worried about isn’t a big deal at all.”
Gu Yuanting was touched by Su Yiran’s words. Indeed, many things happened during his amnesia, but they had gotten through them well. The things he feared probably weren’t so serious.
He was anxious and afraid of many things.
He knew Ranran was kind and bright. Since middle school, he had carefully hidden his dark side from Ranran, maintaining a relatively normal image in front of him, and had succeeded. Ranran never discovered the things he did behind the scenes.
Ranran accepted his love and even fell in love with him. They dated for four years and finally got married.
But the happier his life became, the more afraid he was that Ranran would discover his true self — a crazy, controlling, twisted person, who was a pervert. He feared Ranran wouldn’t be able to accept that.
Yes, Gu Yuanting finally admitted he was a pervert.
He was even more afraid Ranran would learn about his previous life — that in his past life he was a complete villain, and Ranran would be even less able to accept him.
In truth, he always felt inferior and unworthy of Ranran.
He thought once Ranran found out everything, once he knew the real him, he would definitely stop loving him, maybe even fear and hate him, and eventually leave him.
The more he thought that way, the more anxious, fearful, and secretive he became.
At the same time, he knew he was reborn from a parallel world, which is why he met Ranran and fell in love. This life was so happy that he always had a hidden worry — he feared that one day the dream would shatter, that in midnight dreams he would suddenly travel back, or even die, and lose everything he had gained.
After his amnesia, Gu Yuanting had analyzed and concluded he had traveled to a parallel world. The old self was the “original owner.”
He had fallen in love with Ranran again, suffered many shocks, even severe depression, but he firmly believed the parallel world theory and never doubted that he was the original self who just lost memory but retained memories from his past life.
After regaining his memory, he wondered why he never once doubted he only had amnesia.
Was he really an idiot?
No, he wasn’t.
Knowing everything he experienced and his mental state, he understood — before losing memory, he was always worried about the parallel world issue and had no confidence that Ranran would accept his dark side.
He had given himself a severe psychological suggestion, which affected his subconscious during amnesia, making him firmly believe in the parallel world theory and amplifying his fears.
“Ting-ge,” Su Yiran saw Gu Yuanting zoning out and gently touched his hair, looking into his eyes seriously: “Even if there are problems, we can face them together. Trust me.”
Gu Yuanting came back to himself, feeling a warm wave in his heart when he saw Ranran’s love and concern. His chest tightened and softened.
Yes, Ranran loved him.
After all that happened, he was certain of this.
During his amnesia, everything he feared was exposed, but none of it happened — Ranran didn’t leave, hate, or fear him. Instead, after criticizing and educating him, Ranran forgave him quickly and loved him as always.
Even when Ranran knew he was watching him through surveillance, he did not get angry, but was so tolerant.
Ranran loved him deeply.
Just as much as he loved Ranran.
Gu Yuanting couldn’t help but hug Ranran and gently kiss him. “Ranran…”
He finally let go of his fear, held Ranran close, and told the truth: “If I told you I’ve lived two lives, and this life I was reborn back into childhood, would you believe me?”
Two lives? Su Yiran’s eyes widened, thinking he misheard. He was originally leaning on Ting-ge’s chest but immediately sat upright, surprised: “Two lives?”
“Sounds like nonsense, right?” Gu Yuanting smiled bitterly, planning to describe the past life as a dream, “Actually…”
Unexpectedly, Su Yiran shook his head firmly, saying, “No, I believe you.”
Gu Yuanting was stunned. Su Yiran then asked, “What happened in your… past life? What kind of person were you?”
His heart tightened but since he had decided to confess, he wouldn’t hide anymore. He hugged Ranran again and began slowly telling about his past life, starting from his childhood.
“… Finally, after losing consciousness in the fire, when I opened my eyes again, I found myself back in childhood, in that beggar organization.”
“And then, I met you.” Gu Yuanting lowered his head, showing Ranran a smile like meeting sunlight.
But then he panicked, hurriedly wiping tears from Ranran’s eyes: “Why, why are you crying?”
Only then did Su Yiran realize tears were streaming down his own face. He didn’t care anymore, hugging Ting-ge with a hurting heart and kissing him repeatedly, voice choked: “Ting-ge, Ting-ge…”
He wanted to comfort Ting-ge but didn’t know what to say. Ting-ge’s experience — being kidnapped, betrayed, abandoned, used, framed… and disabled for life — was not something easy to soothe with words.
Gu Yuanting was moved by Ranran’s tears, hurriedly wiping them away, hugging and gently comforting him: “It’s okay, it’s okay. I’m fine. Ranran, don’t cry, don’t cry…”
Su Yiran took a deep breath, forcing back his tears. Ting-ge was still here; he couldn’t let him worry. Just thinking about Ting-ge’s past pain made him sad, so he kissed him again: “Don’t be afraid, Ting-ge. You have me now. We’ll be happier from now on. I love you, Ting-ge.”
Gu Yuanting relaxed when Ranran stopped crying. Hearing his words, his heart filled and he kissed him gently. “Yes, I have you now. I love you.”
He remembered Ranran’s question about the piano and hurriedly explained, “After returning to the Gu family in my past life, I received so-called ‘noble’ education and learned piano, that’s why I can play.”
Su Yiran no longer cared about piano. Hearing Ting-ge’s past, his heart ached. He now understood why Ting-ge’s personality had become what it was. What he knew about Ting-ge’s childhood was just a tiny fraction. The main reason was Ting-ge’s completely dark past life.
“The past is gone,” Su Yiran calmed himself, worried Ting-ge might get traumatized recalling the past. “Let’s not think about it anymore. Now we’re together, we have a home, and a baby.”
Gu Yuanting gently stroked Ranran’s hair and smiled warmly: “Yes, it’s all gone. We’re together now, with a home and a baby.”
Seeing Ting-ge’s expression, Su Yiran finally relaxed and smiled back.
But Gu Yuanting hesitated. He had briefly mentioned his bad deeds in the past life but didn’t elaborate. He no longer cared about his past, only about Ranran.
After a moment, he hesitated and said: “Ranran, if… I mean if in my past life I did a lot of bad things…”
Su Yiran was startled: “Bad things?”
Gu Yuanting lowered his head: “If I was actually a bad person…”
After saying this, he regretted it — why did he have to reveal everything? What if—
Su Yiran thought a moment and already understood. Ting-ge’s past was full of hardship and bloodshed, and it was inevitable he had to struggle through many dark paths.
Such twisted experiences could lead to a dark personality and many mistakes.
But…