Chapter 56: I Love You

Wen Chu didn’t want to cry, but when he saw the red mark on Xiu’s fingertips, the tears just wouldn’t stop.

He made no sound, just wept silently.

When Xiu’s fingertips lingered at the corner of his eye, Wen Chu even felt a perverse thrill of revenge.

“Wen Chu?”

Cupping Wen Chu’s face and feeling tear after tear fall into his palm, Xiu panicked completely.

Wen Chu’s tears were like heavy hammers smashing onto his deathly still soul. At a loss, Xiu used his thumb to wipe away Wen Chu’s tears.

But the more he wiped, the more tears fell.

“Don’t cry,” Xiu sighed softly. “Tell me, why are you sad?”

During these days, apart from the very beginning, Wen Chu could only hear Xiu’s broken moans. Now, having his face held by Xiu like this and hearing Xiu speak complete sentences to him, Wen Chu’s tears burst like a dam.

He felt so aggrieved.

Wen Chu choked out, “You won’t look at me…”

Xiu was stunned for a moment.

He fumbled from the side of Wen Chu’s face to the back of his head, rubbing Wen Chu’s white hair. “It’s not that I won’t look at you; I can’t see.”

Wen Chu hiccuped through his tears, looking at Xiu. “I healed you. You can see. You’re making excuses.”

Xiu pursed his lips and slowly opened his eyes.

Within his eye sockets was total darkness.

Wen Chu’s tears stopped, and he stared blankly at Xiu.

“It’s a bit scary, so I was afraid of frightening you.” Xiu quickly closed his eyes.

“I felt it; you are very beautiful. Don’t cry.”

Wen Chu was still dazed. He reached out with trembling hands to gently touch Xiu’s eyelids.

“Why? Didn’t I heal you with lifespan? Where are your eyes?”

Not even waiting for Xiu’s answer, Wen Chu went to frantically knock on the System.

[Where are Xiu’s eyes? Why didn’t my healing restore Xiu’s eyes?]

System: [I need to correct one point. From the beginning, your ability has only been to transfer lifespan to achieve the effect of healing, not healing itself.]

Wen Chu raged: [But isn’t the end result healing? You took my lifespan but shortchanged me.]

System: […Then I’ll return it to you?]

[Lifespan +10h]
[Remaining Lifespan: 21 Years, 281 Days, 17 Hours]

Wen Chu: …

Is he lacking this little bit of lifespan?

Wen Chu wanted to pester the System further, but the next second, Xiu spoke, pulling back his attention.

“Although I don’t know how you did it or what price you paid, my eyes probably won’t recover until this world returns to its origin point.”

Xiu said calmly.

“Why?” Wen Chu pressed.

Xiu frowned, trying to find a reasonable explanation, but in the end, it was truly difficult to explain clearly to Wen Chu in just a few words.

He probed tentatively, “What time is it outside now?”

Thinking Xiu was changing the subject again, Wen Chu turned his face away and said coldly, “Thanks to you, they have now retreated to the main urban area. The surrounding four districts have all disappeared.”

“Then the time should be about right.” Xiu looked thoughtful. “Go out with me once, to the main urban area, and I’ll explain to you.”

“No! Don’t even think about it!”

Hearing the words “go out,” Wen Chu’s guard went up instantly.

Xiu didn’t understand. He tried hard to think along Wen Chu’s lines and explained, “I won’t run. I just want to take you to see something.”

Wen Chu wasn’t willing. He pounced directly into Xiu’s arms. “No, I don’t want your explanation anymore. You stay here. I will find a way to heal your eyes.”

Knowing that Xiu wasn’t unwilling to look at him, Wen Chu felt much less aggrieved. He even started to think happily that if Xiu couldn’t see, would he only be able to stay by his side from now on?

He rubbed against Xiu’s stomach. “You are still pregnant with our egg. You can’t run around.”

Only then did Xiu remember his bulging lower abdomen.

He had wanted to ask Wen Chu about this from the very beginning.

Xiu looked down and touched it, confirming the size of his belly, then said, “It doesn’t matter, it’s just starting to show—how did you get me pregnant?”

Wen Chu looked away guiltily. “Did it too much… naturally got pregnant.”

Being pregnant with a ball of mist counts as being pregnant too.

Xiu was confused. “I don’t have the organs for pregnancy.”

Wen Chu, who had never taken a biology class, felt even guiltier. “I say you have them, so you have them.”

Afraid that saying more would reveal the truth, he directly controlled the mist inside Xiu’s stomach to expand a circle. Xiu’s belly quickly turned into the appearance of a five-month pregnancy.

Xiu’s questioning words got stuck in his throat, causing him to lose it again due to this unexpected expansion of mist.

Sticking out his belly and holding Wen Chu, he trembled, humming a few out-of-tune breaths from his nose.

His brain, which had just regained clarity with difficulty, went blank again.

Wen Chu said faintly in his ear, “See, you’re like this now, so don’t go out.”

Xiu shivered, making no response.

Wen Chu waited patiently. Only when Xiu stopped trembling did he continue, “I will take care of you. I saved a lot of money. Whatever you want, I can buy for you. You just need to be with me. I will take care of you forever and ever, letting you carry eggs for me.”

“—Until you fall in love with me.”

Xiu finally realized something was wrong. “…When did I not like you?”

It would have been better not to mention it. Once mentioned, Wen Chu was about to explode. “You never liked me at all.”

“You were so fierce to me. To save this world, you left me behind directly. You, you—”

Wen Chu hadn’t learned language deeply enough for curse words yet. He held it in for a long time, finally saying:

“You are super bad!!”

Xiu felt an inappropriate urge to laugh.

But he quickly pulled back his thoughts and said seriously, “I thought you were avoiding me on purpose. You kept sneaking out and hiding your human form from me. I thought I wasn’t that important to you either…”

“Nonsense!” Wen Chu felt he had suffered the greatest slander in his life.

“I went out to make money. I didn’t see you because I was deceived. You—”

Wen Chu bit his lower lip.

“You are the first person to talk to me. How could you not be important to me?”

Before this, no one would bother to feed him, let alone care about him so much because of a small injury.

Because of Xiu, he learned that when one person meets another, they can have a hug.

“Mn, I spoke nonsense.” Xiu admitted readily.

If nothing else, being pinned down by Wen Chu for more than half a month had completely overturned the relationship Xiu thought he had with Wen Chu.

For half a month, he drifted in the sea of desire. Occasionally sobering up and realizing something was wrong between him and Wen Chu, he would be thrown into panic by Wen Chu’s tears again.

By the time he came back to his senses, he was actually pregnant with Wen Chu’s egg.

Xiu sighed. “I don’t dislike you. I cherish you very much. You are… the only existence I value.”

Wen Chu remained unmoved with a cold face, asking bluntly, “Do you like me?”

Xiu’s words came to an abrupt halt.

If it were on the Ferris wheel half a month ago, he might have been able to say “like” to Wen Chu. But now, under this twisted love where Wen Chu was near collapse and he was pregnant with the other’s child, Xiu suddenly dared not speak.

“Like” seemed so flimsy at this moment.

Wen Chu wasn’t surprised by Xiu’s silence at all. He curved his lips into a smile uglier than crying and stood up from Xiu’s arms.

“I’ll go cook for you.”

Then come back and f*ck Xiu to death.

“…I love you,” Xiu said softly.

Wen Chu’s movement of standing up froze instantly.

Xiu couldn’t see, so he turned his head toward the source of the sound and repeated seriously, “I love you. Don’t be sad.”

As long as Wen Chu stopped crying, he could give however much love he wanted.

He was someone who should have died. Xiu felt he had done his utmost for this world. Since he had survived now, whether out of pity or tenderness for Wen Chu, Xiu felt he should be responsible for the current Wen Chu.

Even if the price was being locked up by Wen Chu for the rest of his life.

What did Xiu say?

I, love, you?

He’s lying, right?

Wen Chu stood rooted to the spot for a long time.

Only when Xiu called him uncertainly again did Wen Chu snap back to reality, jumping back like a startled rabbit.

“I’m going to cook.”

Wen Chu said quickly.

Xiu was very puzzled. Shouldn’t Wen Chu be happy at this time?

Or was it that after doing it for so many days, Wen Chu was finally hungry?

Xiu turned toward the stove, instructing worriedly, “Turn the knob on the right to light the fire. Do you know how to cook?”

Wen Chu’s face was bright red. Standing in front of the stove, rubbing his face vigorously, his mind full of “I love you,” he answered in a trance, “Yes.”

Isn’t it just turning on the fire, adding vegetables to the pot, and stirring?

Xiu: …

Even more worried.

Sure enough.

Ten minutes later, crackling explosions came from the stove. Startled, Xiu hurriedly supported his belly and fumbled to get out of bed. “Wen Chu? Are you okay? What happened?”

Wen Chu flusteredly turned off the fire. Looking at the pot in his hand, which had a layer of coal burned onto it, and the unidentifiable black object inside, he guiltily placed the pot on the dining table.

“I’m fine, just a little accident.”

Wen Chu walked up quickly to support Xiu, who was fumbling around in the dark, wanting to help him back to bed. “Wait a bit longer; I’ll be done soon.”

Xiu: …

He was very worried now that Wen Chu would blow up the stone tower any moment.

It didn’t matter if the tower blew up, but in Wen Chu’s current state, it would be difficult to find a second home with such complete daily necessities.

Xiu sighed and held out his bound wrists to Wen Chu. “I’ll cook for you. Can you untie me for a while?”

Wen Chu stopped talking.

He looked at Xiu’s wrists, stopping in his tracks, making no movement for a long time.

Is the love Xiu spoke of sincere, or is he coaxing me to untie him so he can continue saving this world?

Wen Chu’s long hair covered his eyes.

He didn’t know, and he couldn’t accept even a bit of such possibility.

If only he could see all of Xiu’s thoughts, or if he and Xiu died together, so neither of them would have any other thoughts.

Wen Chu remembered the tears Xiu shed on him when he disappeared in the first world.

If only he had stayed a little longer back then.

He really wanted to know, facing him resurrected like this, would Xiu also lock him up and never let him go out like he did?

Sensing the solidified atmosphere in the air, Xiu comforted him slowly, “I’ll cook for you. There should still be some vegetables at home? You can hold one of my hands; I can cook with one hand.”

“Hold hands…?” Wen Chu wavered.

Xiu gave a “Mn” and said even more gently, “Look, I’m not wearing clothes right now, and I can’t wear clothes. I’m just cooking for you. Aside from that, I can’t go anywhere.”

Wen Chu wavered even more.

Xiu indeed couldn’t wear clothes. The current Xiu would expire just by being pressed against the sheets, let alone wearing clothes that were too tight for him.

Wen Chu hesitated and struggled for a long time, finally obediently untying the cloth strips on Xiu’s wrists.

Having been bound for half a month and finally regaining the freedom of his hands, Xiu’s first reaction wasn’t to exercise his wrists, but to backhandedly hold Wen Chu’s hand.

Not holding hands simulated by mist, but real hands of two people, fingers interlaced.

Xiu said calmly, “I can’t see. Take me to the stove. Take whatever you want to eat yourself. I might need to trouble you while cooking.”

Wen Chu remained silent, silently pulling Xiu toward the stove.

He didn’t know what vegetables there were, only that Xiu had made him a dish of cabbage-wrapped meat.

Half of the chicken Xiu asked Minnie to buy was left in the refrigerator. The cabbage had mostly rotted over half a month, but peeling off the outer leaves revealed some intact ones inside.

Wen Chu had just been burning cabbage himself.

He handed the cabbage and chicken to Xiu’s hand. Xiu touched them and understood. “Okay, I’ll make it for you.”

As he spoke, Xiu picked up the cabbage and handed it to Wen Chu. “I can’t peel it with one hand. Can I trouble you to peel it for me?”

Wen Chu gave an awkward “Oh” and went to help Xiu peel the cabbage.

He was a little at a loss. Xiu behaved too calmly and indulgently, making him look like he was making trouble unreasonably instead.

Xiu closed his eyes, listening to the sound of cabbage leaves being torn. Although he couldn’t see, his thoughts were clear.

As if he had seen the words in Wen Chu’s heart, he suddenly spoke, “Don’t feel embarrassed. It’s my fault. As long as you don’t hurt yourself, you can throw a tantrum at me for a while longer.”

Wen Chu’s movement paused. “I am not throwing a tantrum.”

Wen Chu had been in contact with the human world quite a bit. He felt that no matter how you looked at it, his act of locking Xiu up and doing him for half a month, and now following him every step of the way, should look like a horror story.

Not some tantrum.

Xiu changed his words smoothly. “Then it’s not a tantrum.”

Xiu still felt some shame for fooling around with a junior, but more than that was pity.

“I will take care of you. Don’t be afraid.”

…

Cabbage-wrapped meat wasn’t hard to make, but with only two hands between two people, and the only one who could cook having no eyes, the difficulty doubled directly.

Following Xiu’s verbal instructions, Wen Chu clumsily wrapped the meat in the cabbage, steamed it in the steamer, and then cooked the rice.

And wash the pot. Wen Chu picked up the pot he had casually placed on the table just now, only to find that the wooden tabletop had been scalded with a round patch of scorched black by the pot.

Xiu bought this.

Wen Chu felt distressed, trying to wipe it with his hand unwillingly. Finding that the black mark couldn’t be wiped off, he dejectedly held Xiu’s hand and went to wash the pot.

He would buy an identical one back.

He didn’t say much throughout the process. Xiu followed him patiently, occasionally giving a word of guidance.

Only when the aroma of cabbage and meat filled the room and the rice was served on the table did Wen Chu suddenly realize that he had actually coexisted peacefully with Xiu for so long.

Xiu also served a bowl of rice. He fumbled with his chopsticks against the edge of the plate, picked up a piece of meat, and put it in Wen Chu’s bowl. “Eat.”

Wen Chu didn’t move his chopsticks but looked at Xiu.

Xiu still wasn’t wearing clothes. Because of his belly, he had to sit away from the dining table. That long golden hair draped over his body in a mess, showing no trace of the cold and mean Evil God from their first meeting.

The god had been pulled down from the altar by him.

And locked up by him, pregnant with an egg for him.

Wen Chu took a bite of the cabbage-wrapped meat and buried his head to shovel rice, unable to figure out why Xiu could still say he loved him in this situation, and even cook for him calmly.

Shouldn’t he question where the egg came from? Does Xiu have no reaction to his own pregnancy?

Too strange.

It was so strange that if Xiu suddenly made a move to kill him the next second, telling him that the calm just now was just foreshadowing, Wen Chu wouldn’t be too surprised.

They finished the meal in silence like this. Under Xiu’s guidance, Wen Chu washed the bowls, then quickly bound Xiu’s wrists tightly again.

“I want to mate with you,” Wen Chu said fiercely.

Supporting his belly, Xiu hesitated for a moment but couldn’t help saying, “Wait a bit first?”

Wen Chu revealed an “as expected” expression. The thick fog permeating the entire West District began to surge at this moment.

Xiu said softly, “Let me change the sheets for you first. Also, shouldn’t the clothes on you be washed? Do you want to take a bath first?”

Having finally gotten a chance to talk to Wen Chu, he wanted to finish the things he was worried about first.

Wen Chu: …

Wen Chu: “I changed the sheets myself.”

Otherwise, with so much water from Xiu, the bed would have been flooded long ago.

Xiu was still worried. “What season is it now? are you still wearing winter clothes…”

“I take very good care of myself.” Wen Chu interrupted him, unable to bear it anymore. “I want to mate with you. Don’t change the subject.”

Xiu had no choice but to shut up.

Once they mated, who knew when it would end again.

Holding such thoughts, Xiu supported his belly and sat on the bed with Wen Chu.

“Alright,” Xiu sighed.

With his bound hands, he pushed Wen Chu down onto the bed and straddled Wen Chu.

He had no clothes and was already thoroughly cooked, so he sat down very smoothly.

It was just a little too smooth.

Xiu forgot about the egg in his stomach and was pushed by Wen Chu deeper inside along with the egg. He whimpered, trembling all over, and lost it once again.

The front was completely numb. Even when losing it, Xiu couldn’t feel anything. Only the rear continuously pushed him to lose composure.

Wen Chu was shocked, not expecting at all to be pushed down by Xiu. He hurriedly helped Xiu support his belly. “What are you doing?!”

The corners of Xiu’s eyes were flushed red. His lips trembled before he could make a sound.

“Mating… with you.”

Isn’t that what Wen Chu wanted?

“I mean, why did you sit down??”

For the past half month, Wen Chu had been entering Xiu from behind. Because he was too afraid to see a look of disgust on Xiu’s face, he hadn’t even dared to look at Xiu’s face much.

This was his first time seeing Xiu face to face.

Humans and merfolk were visually completely different experiences. Wen Chu’s face turned even redder.

It should be him f*cking Xiu, not Xiu sitting on him.

Xiu misunderstood Wen Chu’s meaning. He touched his lower abdomen, felt his current state, and said seriously, “It’s okay; it won’t break.”

As long as Wen Chu’s egg was fine. As a god, his body couldn’t be damaged.

Wen Chu was speechless. “You…”

Why is Xiu seducing people indiscriminately?

But Wen Chu was indeed seduced.

Therefore, although he didn’t understand why Xiu was so proactive, adhering to the philosophy that eating one more bite earns one more bit, Wen Chu held onto Xiu’s waist.

“You asked for this yourself,” Wen Chu muttered, continuing to eat Xiu.

[Lifespan +2376h]

…

After all, having done it for half a month, Xiu was simply too sensitive. Wen Chu stopped unexpectedly after finishing this time.

He looked at the messy Xiu for a while, suddenly reaching out to transfer ten hours of lifespan to Xiu.

Xiu, who was still trembling and spitting air just now, was suddenly completely healed, instantly somewhat at a loss.

It was like suddenly having a large bucket of cold water poured over him, extinguishing all desire.

He touched Wen Chu. “You transferred lifespan to me again? How much did you use? Do you want to eat it back?”

Wen Chu avoided Xiu’s hand, lowered his eyes to look at Xiu’s stomach, and finally couldn’t help asking, “Don’t you have anything else you want to say to me?”

“Anything else?” Xiu didn’t understand.

Wen Chu: “Don’t you want to condemn me? Don’t you think I’m scary? Don’t you want to run away?”

Xiu was truly stunned.

Wen Chu regretted it as soon as the words left his mouth. He was afraid Xiu hadn’t realized these things originally but realized them after his reminder.

Seeing Xiu stunned, Wen Chu worried that Xiu would think further, speaking anxiously and quickly, “Just treat it as if I…”

“Aren’t you acting like a spoiled child?” Xiu interrupted him slowly.

Wen Chu: “Huh?”

“Exactly.” Xiu frowned in thought. “You cry at me, want to mate with me, ask me if I love you, and refuse to admit you’re throwing a tantrum. Aren’t you acting spoiled to me?”

That’s why he was trying his best to comfort Wen Chu.

Xiu’s mind wandered for a moment, thinking that even if he couldn’t see Wen Chu, he could imagine that Wen Chu must have red eyes now, with an expression like he was about to cry, eating tearfully, and mating with him while sobbing.

Pitiful and cute.

Wen Chu’s fur bristled. “I’m not! I’m taking you by force! I’m angry!”

Xiu said calmly, “Mn, so I’m coaxing you.”

Meaning he still regarded his series of behaviors as acting spoiled.

Wen Chu was choked with anger, dragging up Xiu’s wrists bound by himself. “I locked you up, won’t let you go anywhere, and even tied you up.”

“Because you are insecure.” Xiu’s words hit the nail on the head.

Hit by the truth, Wen Chu fell silent instantly.

He was insecure, terrified that if he let go of Xiu, the other would turn back into that aloof god.

Xiu laughed. “So you’re clinging to me and acting spoiled. Very cute.”

And very pitiful, crying so hard his heart was about to break.

If it were someone else, he might have torn that person to pieces directly. But this was Wen Chu. Even if he couldn’t see, all his actions fell into Xiu’s ears, and the final picture left was just a pitiful crying cat head.

“I didn’t!! I even made you pregnant with an egg!”

Wen Chu tried his best to refute, but unfortunately, his behavior was indeed pitiful coquetry in the eyes of the Evil God who had lived for tens of thousands of years. His rebuttal was invalid.

Xiu patted his head, coaxing him. “You didn’t.”

“It’s okay. No need to waste lifespan on me. I’ll accompany you. When you are willing to go out with me, I’ll explain to you slowly.”

“And the child…”

Xiu hesitated.

“I don’t have experience raising children. If we must give birth to it, you might need to take care of it. Do you know how to take care of children?”

“No.” Wen Chu told the truth. “We’ll throw it away after you give birth.”

Anyway, what remained in Xiu’s body was just a small ball condensed from his mist. It would be fine even if kicked around like a ball after birth.

Xiu disapproved. “This is also a child carrying your bloodline. You have to be responsible for him.”

Wen Chu retorted, “Then did you take responsibility for me?”

Xiu stopped talking.

After a while, Xiu said, “Sorry, I didn’t realize your feelings in time. After all, with a body like mine, I didn’t think anyone would like it.”

“Whatever you want, I will try my best to compensate you.”

Wen Chu felt a blockage in his heart from Xiu’s words.

Actually, he didn’t know what he wanted either. He was just sad and angry, but Xiu was like a sponge; after absorbing his emotions, the feedback given was still soft.

He wanted Xiu’s love.

But he didn’t know what counted as love, so he could only rely on instinct, demanding from Xiu again and again.

Wen Chu glanced at the sky outside. It was already the unknown-th late night.

He whispered, “I want you to never leave me in this life, the next life, and forever after.”

Xiu was just about to open his mouth when Wen Chu covered it.

“Don’t agree yet.”

Wen Chu reached out, forcing his way between Xiu’s bound hands, rubbing the red mark on Xiu’s ring finger in detail.

Wen Chu curled his lips.

“You want to explain? Then I’ll take you to the main urban area tomorrow.”

He found it hard to believe any word coming out of Xiu’s mouth now.

So Wen Chu chose to test it with practice.

Wasn’t Xiu’s purpose in doing all this to get him to take him to the main urban area? Then he would take him, to see what exactly Xiu wanted to explain.

If Xiu dared to make a move to leave him…

Wen Chu turned his eyes to ask the System, who had been playing dead for a long time: [After four worlds, can I still see Xiu?]

System: […]

Wen Chu: [Then that means yes.]

Wen Chu chuckled aloud.

He stroked the side of Xiu’s face with closed eyes, his voice light and sweet.

“If you dare to lie to me, you’re dead.”

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Author’s Note:
Wen Chu: (Fierce) (Fierce) (Crying)
Person with normal worldview: Holy crap, yandere.
Xiu: Moe (Pity) (Cooking)
(And this is even without seeing the face)