DLARLB CH2
by DewdropTLChapter 2: The Number You Have Dialed Is Dead, Please Reincarnate and Try Again
Jiang Ruotang leaned in closer to look at Lu Guifan. Having spent so many years in the entertainment industry, he’d seen plenty of attractive people, but there was something uniquely captivating about Lu Guifan.
Perhaps it was the awareness of his own mortality that sharpened his perception.
Time flowed and faded in the contours of Lu Guifanโs features. The world spun in chaos around them, but he remained like frost crystallizedโunchanging, eternal.
If he had been the protagonist in my fatherโs films, what kind of cinematic magic would have been born?
Suddenly, Jiang Ruotang felt like heโd been blind all along. How could he have ever thought Bai Yingchuan was one-of-a-kind?
Then he laughed at himself. Jiang Ruotang, youโre on deathโs doorstep, and you still have the energy to critique someoneโs looks?
โDonโt worry, Iโm not going to die,โ Jiang Ruotang said, biting into the apple.
โStage two lung cancer. You really are confident.โ
โI mean I wonโt choose to die,โ Jiang Ruotang clarified.
Now that he was no longer spinning like a top around Bai Yingchuan, a fierce desire to cherish the people around him flared up in Jiang Ruotangโs fast-burning life.
He had once been full of prejudice and resentment toward his stepmother, Zhao Yunshu. But the day after learning of his cancer diagnosis, half her hair had turned white.
By all logic, with Jiang Huaiyuan gone, she could have walked away without anyone blaming her. Yet she exhausted every resource to save him.
Zhao Changfeng, her son, had been at odds with Jiang Ruotang from the moment they met. But since Jiang Ruotangโs hospitalization, no matter how sharply Jiang Ruotang spoke to him, Changfeng endured it without complaintโbringing him meals every single day, rain or shine.
Once, when Jiang Ruotang fainted in the bathroom, Changfeng nearly panicked, carrying him back to bed while shouting for the doctor. In that moment, Jiang Ruotang thought he was being sent straight to the crematorium. When he woke up, the first thing he saw was Changfengโs scruffy face.
It was also the first time Jiang Ruotang ever said โIโm sorryโ to him.
Changfeng froze, bewildered. โYouโre apologizing to me? Are youโฆ dying? Is this the clarity before death?โ
โIโโ Jiang Ruotang almost took it back. If he werenโt so weak, heโd have wrestled Changfeng to the ground like old times.
Later, chemotherapy made Jiang Ruotangโs hair fall out in patchy, ugly clumps, so he shaved it all off.
Changfeng bought him several expensive wigs online, but no matter which one Jiang Ruotang wore, it looked like โgrass on a bald egg.โ
โReturn them! Theyโre hideous, I donโt want them.โ Truthfully, he didnโt want to waste money on this. โSave your cash for a house or a girlfriend.โ
Somewhere along the way, Jiang Ruotang had started worrying about Changfengโs futureโlike an older brother would.
Changfeng lowered his head and muttered, โEven if I save forever, Iโll never afford a house. A P.E. teacher without tenureโฆ whoโd want me?โ
Jiang Ruotangโs chest tightened.
If not for someone stealing Changfengโs spot as a sports recruit ten years ago, he wouldnโt be stuck as a middle-school P.E. teacher now.
But life had no rewinds, no do-overs.
Propping his chin on his hand, Jiang Ruotang studied Changfengโs handsome features and said solemnly, โChangfeng, youโre 190 cm tall with broad shoulders, a narrow waist, long legs, and big, beautiful eyes brimming with earnest sincerity. Maybeโฆ you should pivot.โ
โHuh? Pivot where?โ Changfeng looked up, curiosity gleaming in his eyes.
โFind a sugar mommy to marry. Then I can die in peace.โ
โIs Lu Guifan on a business trip? Is that why no oneโs keeping you in check?โ
Jiang Ruotang endured Changfengโs โfuryโโor rather, his carefully restrained punches.
Three months later, Lu Guifan returned. He still wore that dark trench coat, now paired with a knit cap and new black-framed glasses. The lenses were thin enough that Jiang Ruotang could clearly see the depth of his eyes.
Lu Guifan brought him a wigโone with strands so real they felt soft yet resilient, comforting to the touch.
Excited, Jiang Ruotang tried it on in front of the mirror. โThis is the best Iโve looked since getting sick.โ
โMn.โ Lu Guifanโs response was quiet.
Jiang Ruotangโs eyes burned, tears spilling over.
He knew. This wig was made from Lu Guifanโs own hair. He recognized the scent.
Though his life was counting down, every day felt fuller nowโreading, sketching, even watching Lu Guifanโs lecture videos.
Then one morning, Jiang Ruotang woke up to over a dozen missed callsโall from Bai Yingchuan.
โTch. Is the current โtop starโ calling to ask if Iโm dead yet? Should he start preparing joss paper?โ He laughed.
Opening WeChat, he was stunned to find multiple messages from Bai Yingchuan.
Unbelievable.
[Ruotang, howโs your health? Want to come back to work? They say having a job gives life purpose.]
Hah. Lin Lu, youโre shameless. I blocked you after getting fired, yet here you are, still trying to exploit me.
[Yingchuan misses you. Heโs not used to you being gone. Heโs up for the lead in Director Feiโs new filmโif he lands it, heโll solidify his status as a serious actor. Will you join us? It wonโt be hardโjust accompany Yingchuan to chat with Director Fei.]
Director Fei had always despised Lin Luโs two-faced, honey-tongued act and considered Bai Yingchuan โa pretty face with no soul.โ Last time, it was only by invoking his fatherโs name that Jiang Ruotang secured Bai Yingchuan a supporting role. Now, without Jiang Ruotang, Director Fei wouldnโt even spare them a glance.
Lin Lu had taken credit for Jiang Ruotangโs work for years, but now, with the whole industry watching, he was stuckโunable to close the deal.
[Ruotang, Yingchuan needs you now.]
Reading that, Jiang Ruotang could practically hear Lin Luโs saccharine tone. He nearly laughed himself breathless.
After a decade of anti-scam PSAs, he was finally immune to โYingchuan needs you.โ
He changed his WeChat status to: [The number you have dialed is deceased. Please reincarnate and try again.]
The moment he updated it, another message popped upโthis time, unmistakably from Bai Yingchuan himself:
[I know youโre online. Why arenโt you answering?]
Jiang Ruotang rubbed his chin. Oh? So itโs really him this time.
Then he scrolled past another WeChat Moment from that shipwreck profile:
โIf someone makes you unhappy, kick them out of your world. For good.โ
Jiang Ruotang smirked and blocked Bai Yingchuan on everything.
See you in the next life. Feel free to dance on my grave.
Today was Jiang Ruotangโs birthday. Lying in bed, he scrolled through videos of Lu Guifanโs lectures and academic interviews.
โIf my high school teachers had been this good-looking, Iโd have aced my exams.โ
โUnless they surgically removed your love-struck brain first.โ
Lu Guifanโs voice came from the doorway. It was already 8 PMโheโd come straight after work.
โRemove my love-struck brain? Then Iโd be brainless.โ Jiang Ruotang grinned.
โI got permission from the head nurse. For your birthday, Iโm taking you to a movie.โ
โLetโs go!โ
Outside, snow had begun to fall. Jiang Ruotang shivered, his chest heavy as if pressed by stone, each breath a struggle.
But he didnโt want to go back.
As if reading his mind, Lu Guifan draped his coat over Jiang Ruotangโs shoulders, then turned and knelt slightly, offering his back.
โThis road is lined with billboards and screens. If you want to see him, Iโll carry you this way. If not, weโll take the alleys.โ
Jiang Ruotang knew he meant Bai Yingchuanโs adsโubiquitous, inescapable.
โWhy take the alleys? Donโt we deserve to walk in the light too?โ
Lu Guifan adjusted his grip and kept walking. โHe is good-looking, though.โ
Resting his head against Lu Guifanโs shoulder, Jiang Ruotang realizedโthis idiot thinks I still care about Bai Yingchuan.
โPlease. In terms of looks, youโre more elegant, cultured, and substantial. If I were going to fawn over anyone, itโd be you.โ
โI expected you to say, โBetter to fawn over roast pork than him.โโ
Lu Guifanโs body was warm. With every word he spoke, the vibration of his voice traveled straight to Jiang Ruotangโs heart.
If he could, Jiang Ruotang would stretch this road endlesslyโto stay forever on Lu Guifanโs back, listening to his breaths, breathing in his scent.
If onlyโฆ I could start over.
Not waste time on the wrong people.
Drowsiness crept in. His body grew colder, breaths slower, mind sinking as if weightless.
He knew the end was near.
And Lu Guifan seemed to sense it too, halting mid-step, tilting his head slightly upward.
Silly. If you cry in this cold, your tears will freeze.
That beautiful faceโdonโt let it frost over.
Darkness swallowed him, pulling him into an abyss.
Yet his body felt lighter, as if breaking free from gravity, floating upward.
Thenโ
A loud alarm blared, โDing-ding-ding-ding!โ like a summons to reincarnation.
Jiang Ruotang jolted upright.
Soft blankets. A spacious room. On the desk across from him sat a brand-new but outdated computer.
A knock at the door.
โRuotang, are you up? Breakfast is ready!โ
That voiceโAuntie Juan? Warm, fond, slightly exasperated. His eyes burned.
But sheโd left after his fatherโs deathโฆ ten years ago.
He scrambled out of bed, his feet landing on childish fuzzy slippers, and yanked the door open.
Auntie Juan smiled at him.
And over her shoulder, at the dining table downstairs, sat his father.
His heart pounded like thunder.
Was my fatherโs death and my cancer just a nightmare? Or is this the dream I donโt dare wake from?
He sprinted downstairs and hugged Jiang Huaiyuan with all his strength.
His father, mid-bite into a soup dumpling, choked in surprise. Theyโd been estranged for months over his relationship with Zhao Yunshuโthis sudden affection was unexpected.
โRuotangโฆ whatโsโฆ whatโs wrong?โ
Jiang Ruotang touched his fatherโs hairโstill jet-black, untouched by hardship.
โDadโฆ Iโve been thinkingโฆ Auntie Zhao isnโt so bad.โ
โHuh?โ Jiang Huaiyuan stared, half-convinced this was sarcasm.
โWhen you see her later, donโt wear that plaid sweater.โ He pinched his fatherโs cheek.
Jiang Huaiyuan didnโt even mind, just delighted in his sonโs playfulness. โWhy not?โ
โIt ages you. Youโll look like her dad.โ
โCoughโcoughโ!โ
Jiang Huaiyuan nearly became the first director in history to choke to death on a dumpling.
Then Jiang Ruotang dashed back to his room and grabbed his phone.
The date read: August 27โten years ago. Three days left of summer vacation.
If this wasnโt a dream, if everything in his memory was real, then today was the day heโd receive that text from Lin Lu.
Right on cueโโDing!โ
Lin Lu: [BREAKING NEWS! The Bai Yingchuan you love is transferring to our school! Same class as us!]
Jiang Ruotangโs throat tightened. So this was what โheart racing, hands shakingโ felt like.
He lowered his eyes and typed back, deliberately slow:
[Not my problem. Stopped liking him ages ago.]

it hurt when he slowly feel asleep not just for him but for Lu Guifan and his family too but I’m also glad it was not a suic*de and he had few memorable moments with them ๐๐๐ญ
His life was hard, but his (first) death wasnโt so bad.