He Is Constantly Jealous Of Himself

JOH CH112: The Cause of Amnesia

After hearing from the doctor that Ting-ge’s body was mostly fine, Su Yiran finally felt relieved. However, although Gu Yuanting’s physical condition had improved, he still needed to see Dr. Sun for psychological evaluation.

After all, Gu Yuanting had only recovered his memory so far; whether his psychological issues had been resolved still required Dr. Sun’s diagnosis.

Only then did Gu Yuanting realize that on the day they had dinner at the restaurant, after Dr. Sun called Yiran, Yiran knew about his amnesia but didn’t have time to ask because of the sudden shooting incident.

Thinking about the shooting, Gu Yuanting’s eyes darkened.

The culprit had not been caught yet. Gu Yuanting had already arranged for people to covertly assist the police in a full-scale manhunt. The search net was tightening, and the culprit wouldn’t be able to hide for long.

There were still many doubts about Gu Yuanting’s amnesia—things Su Yiran couldn’t figure out. He had also consulted Gu Yuanting’s treating neurologist, Dr. Liu, explaining Gu Yuanting’s previous amnesia and current memory recovery.

Dr. Liu explained that the current memory recovery was probably due to physical stimulation to Gu Yuanting’s brain from the impact, combined with earlier psychological trauma. The dual effect had restored his memory completely.

As for the prior amnesia, Dr. Liu was unclear about the exact cause and couldn’t provide an explanation yet. Before Gu Yuanting’s memory returned, his amnesia was never formally diagnosed, and there was no relevant medical record.

“I remember Mr. Gu had several brain scans before, and we never found any signs of injury,” Dr. Liu said.

Generally, causes of amnesia are either psychological trauma or brain injury, such as hematoma blocking blood flow in the brain. Once the blockage clears, memory usually returns quickly.

During Gu Yuanting’s psychological treatment, multiple brain and neurological examinations showed no abnormalities or hematomas. That was why they ruled out neurological or brain diseases, diagnosing him with purely psychological issues.

This puzzled Su Yiran. He asked Gu Yuanting, “Ting-ge, what happened before your amnesia? Why did it cause your memory loss?”

Dr. Liu also looked to Gu Yuanting, waiting for his answer.

Gu Yuanting was silent for a moment, then slowly recalled events before losing his memory, and even further back.

In his past life, he had done terrible things, alienated everyone, and finally died by self-immolation in a small villa on a remote island overseas. Upon waking, he discovered he had been reborn as a child, sold into a beggar’s gang, just as his leg was broken by the gang’s enforcers after being betrayed by “Su Yiran.”

He thought he could finally end it all—the meaningless life, the hateful world.

But unexpectedly, it was a new cycle all over again.

At that time, Gu Yuanting was extremely world-weary. He could have healed his leg immediately by various means or escaped the gang, but he lay still in the filthy underground warehouse, letting his injury worsen without a care.

He was indifferent to his broken leg, indifferent to escape.

All he cared about was when he would truly die.

Until he noticed that “Su Yiran” was different.

This Su Yiran, even after betraying him, still dared to approach him proactively, even secretly treating his leg and saying he would save him.

In the past life, after betraying him, “Su Yiran” had gotten a better life in the gang but was always fearful and kept distance from him, never daring to approach.

Gu Yuanting began to take interest in this. With disgust and ridicule, he silently observed this new Su Yiran.

“Did Su Yiran also get reborn?”

Later, Su Yiran really helped him escape the gang. Because of timely first aid from Su Yiran, this time his left leg was saved.

Like the past life, he was adopted by Su’s parents. The difference was this time, Su’s parents came directly to the hospital and adopted him while taking Su Yiran home.

Gu Yuanting started living with the Su family. He kept watching Su Yiran, and after several tests, realized Su Yiran was not reborn. He was sure Su Yiran knew nothing of the past life.

So what reason explained Su Yiran’s drastic change, so unlike the past life Su Yiran?

Finally, Gu Yuanting understood—he had been reborn into a parallel world. The Su Yiran here was a completely different person… another version.

Later, he attended school with Su Yiran, ate with him, lived with him every day.

Eventually, Gu Yuanting fell in love with Yiran, deeply and irrevocably.

He gathered evidence from the past life and reported the trafficking gang to the police. The gang was dismantled early, and the “stepmother” was imprisoned. Then he erased all his own traces, cutting all links so the Gu family couldn’t find him.

He did not want to look back or get entangled with the Gu family—only wanted to live peacefully with Yiran.

Things went well. When the Gu family learned he had been trafficked, they tried following police leads to find him, but failed and gradually gave up. Gu Yuanting stopped paying attention to them.

He was lucky. Yiran finally accepted his love and fell for him. He completely left behind his past life’s shadows and started a beautiful new life with Yiran.

They lived happily for seven or eight years—from dating to marriage, every day blissful.

Until October last year, he learned the Gu family had restarted secretly searching for him, using nearly all resources, determined to find him at any cost, and had been doing so for over two months.

Gu Yuanting’s nerves instantly tightened. He snapped out of his happy daily life, feeling pulled back into the dark past. He used all his current resources to erase his traces, even wanted to leave City A with Yiran to settle in a quieter city and continue a peaceful life.

But before he could relocate, he discovered Gu Mingfeng’s men had already arrived in City A searching for any clues about him. If they continued, it wouldn’t be long before they found him.

As time passed, Gu Yuanting’s nerves grew more tense, his emotions more repressed. He didn’t want his current life destroyed, didn’t want to return to the Gu family, and didn’t want Yiran to get involved with them.

That day, after finishing errands late, he found someone was following him on the way home.

His heart sank. Gu Mingfeng’s people had indeed found him.

He immediately led the follower into an alley without surveillance and dealt with him there. The man was skilled and fought fiercely, striking Gu Yuanting in the back of the head. At the time, Gu Yuanting only felt dizzy but no external injury and didn’t think much of it.

Since he was already being followed, it meant Gu Mingfeng likely knew where he was. Gu Yuanting knew it was too late to leave City A for another city.

He wouldn’t make Yiran live a life of hiding and running.

As the saying goes, “The tree wants to be still, but the wind won’t stop.” He probably had to return to the Gu family.

That night, his mood was heavy, his emotions low. His head ached faintly. Returning home past midnight, Yiran was already asleep. He held Yiran tightly, feeling sadness and inexplicable fear.

He was sleepless for a long time. The later it got, the worse his dizziness and headache became. Eventually, he lost consciousness without realizing it.

When he woke up again, he had lost all memories since rebirth and meeting Yiran. He only remembered self-immolating on the island. At that time, he also had a full physical checkup in the hospital, which showed no health problems.

After investigation, he firmly believed he had just been reborn, that his past self was the “original owner” of this world, and then…

Gu Yuanting’s face darkened as he recalled what came next.

He skipped over the things related to his past life and only told about being followed, fighting the follower, and being hit on the head.

He didn’t say who the follower was. Dr. Liu didn’t know, but Su Yiran guessed it must be someone from the Gu family, most likely Gu Mingfeng behind it.

Thinking of this, Su Yiran felt deep sympathy. Ting-ge had been carrying heavy burdens alone—before and after his amnesia. He looked at Ting-ge and silently clasped his hand tightly.

Dr. Liu nodded upon hearing Gu Yuanting’s story: “It seems your amnesia was caused by physical trauma to the head.”

“Based on your description, you didn’t have external injuries after the blow, just dizziness. You were checked in hospital and no abnormalities were found. The impact must have been light.”

Su Yiran asked in puzzlement, “Can such a light hit cause amnesia?”

Dr. Liu nodded: “It’s possible. The brain is very complex. Sometimes even a slight stimulus can cause unexpected reactions. For example, if you lightly hit your own head with a fist, it might not hurt, but can cause dizziness.”

Su Yiran instinctively wanted to test this on himself, raising his fist, but Gu Yuanting saw it and hurriedly protected Yiran’s head.

He had experience; if Yiran got amnesia and forgot him… just thinking about it made Gu Yuanting almost suffocate. He quickly pushed those dark thoughts away.

Dr. Liu smiled at them: “Anyway, the important thing is that you’ve recovered your memory now.”

Su Yiran smiled back, looking at Ting-ge: “Yes.”

They thanked Dr. Liu, who packed up his equipment and left since everything was fine.

After Dr. Liu left, Su Yiran suddenly asked Gu Yuanting: “By the way, Ting-ge, when did your amnesia start?”

Gu Yuanting said, “A few days before our dessert shop opened, October 28th.”

At the time, he didn’t pay much attention to that date. After falling in love with Yiran again, he treasured it as the day they first met…

…although it was not a pleasant first meeting.

Gu Yuanting suddenly recalled that day’s details. When he woke, he thought Yiran was the “Su Yiran” from his past life.

Then he shoved the beloved Yiran aside on the bed and told him to “get lost.”

For several days after, he was cold and indifferent to Yiran, ignoring him.

He had treated Yiran harshly.

Gu Yuanting’s face instantly turned pale. Weakly swaying, he nearly choked on his own emotions.

He even thought of sleeping separately from Yiran, and even… divorcing him.

He had hurt Yiran to tears and almost lost him.

Although he had long regretted this before regaining memory, regret couldn’t fix anything. Now Gu Yuanting desperately wished he could go back and slap himself hard.

You idiot! What the hell did you do?!

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